the most powerful song i've heard thus far:




king arthur opera aria 'the cold song', by henry purcell
as sung by klaus nomi

What Power art thou, who from below,
Hast made me rise, unwillingly and slow,
From beds of everlasting snow!
See'st thou not how stiff, and wondrous old,
Far unfit to bear the bitter cold.
I can scarcely move, or draw my breath,
I can scarcely move, or draw my breath.
Let me, let me,
Let me, let me,
Freeze again...
Let me, let me,
Freeze again to death!


the klaus nomi live performance moved me to tears. an odd sort of tears, not sad, not happy or touching, just kind of..empty.

as i dropped my last coin of the day off into the biscuit tin of a busker, my mind concentrated on the simple, blunt sounds of her harmonica, playing in pentatonic c major (an ordinary chinese folk tune that jested the need for any black key). fixated, i was convinced that most things

its been 6 years in guitar ensemble. rige, rjge, i'm at a lost as to wat to say, because there suddenly just isnt pract anymore, in my life omg haha. no more monday wednesday saturday, no more dinner, no more pract, no more pract to look to, no more sleeping in consecutively 4 lessons just to wait for pract to come, no more mass smsing guitar ppl 'DAMN BORED WAITING FOR PRACT TO COME' no more pract, no more pract, no more cca.

sigh,
6 years with these people, 2 years with these people. 1 talk, many dinners, smiling, being happy.

last mos milk, having a meal and taking train/saying bye. bishan mos, mos cares. mos. tsk. sigh life. life. tsk yes. hey hey. fachma, hummus fagala. omg lol our vocab list goes on.

eh, pass the message: smile (:

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so that was it? our last concert ever. guitar people (:

dlbia - oasis
Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play guitar!!! prac prac
You said that you've never been
But all the things that you've seen omg melvin - observing -.- sigh abcd
They slowly fade away
So I'll start a revolution from my bed
'Cuz you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out zzz jamming trap. strumming and singing songs like nobody's business all night long.
And so, Sally can wait yes sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger dont look back in anger zzzzz. argh omg.
I heard you say
Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
Please don't put your life in the hands
Of a rock and roll band omg me jongan jonho. rmr sec2........lol where are we now, pls dont put your life in the hands of a rock and roll band haha.
Who'll throw it all away
I'm gonna start a revolution from my bed
'Cuz you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, 'cuz summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
'Cuz you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out
And so, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger haha...dont look back in anger...sigh
I heard you say
(guitar solo) jonho and i jam.
So, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
I heard you say
So, Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
I heard you say
At least not today.

dont go away - oasis
Cold and frosty morning there's not a lot to say
About the things caught in my mind
And as the day was dawning my plane flew away
With all the things caught in my mind

I don't wanna be there when you're ...
Coming down
I don't wanna be there when you hit the ground

So dont go away, say what you say dont go away dont go away dont go away dont go away :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( dont go away :(
Say that you'll stay
Forever and a day ... In the time of my life
Cos I need more time, yes I need more time just to make things right

Damn my situation and the games I have to play
With all the things caught in my mind
Damn my education I can't find the words to say
With all the things caught in my mind

Me and you whats going on?................:( (: (:
All we seem to know is how to show
The feelings that are wrong

let there be love - oasis
Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me? :( youdid
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams? the world comes undone at the seams....

Let there be love
Let there be love

I hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly stream :(
Suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our dreams words that we sing in our dreams... dreamers vs realists. dreams. tired no dreams. sigh. omg dreams. "i think i at the stayover everytime i got to fall asleep, i got to have a dream (: like i just did (: about 4 diff dreams alr, all about guitar or guitar ppl (: as you say, tired no dream (: and i think the last time before i slept, that i now just wake, i was thinking of the first time we pract exco piece, the one you mentioned when curtains close, pract till 9 one (:"

Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love

Come on Baby Blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky may all your dreaming fill the empty sky, really
But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping
Just remember I'll be by your side
And if you don't let go it's gonna pass you by

Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the seams?

Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love
Let there be love

stop crying your heart out - oasis
Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don't be scared, (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out omg :( :( :( :( :( :( all of the stars have faded away, just try not to worry, you'll see them someday. all the stars really fade away alr. will we see them someday? is there really 'frends 4eva'.

Get up, (get up)
Come on, (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them some day,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

We're all of the stars,
We're fading away.
Just try not to worry,
You'll see us someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out... [4x] omg they dint have to repeat it 3 times and have last paragraph liddat.


sigh, super at loss ya? guitar is gone. so that was it. i really wont forget everyone.
pretty pretty. (:




what now?

the value in photographs

just realised this is my 900th post, and also my first post of 2009,

i guess the crossing over into the new year is of not much significance to me, i mean rly, who defines when a year ends and when a year starts?? hahaha though during retreat, when they made me pen down 1 regret of 2008 and 1 wish for 2009, a person like me who obviously doesnt do reflections or newyear resolutions cos i'm lazy, does feel the crossing over from 2008 to 2009 la haha. nth much tho, the 1 regret and 1 wish thing was nice tho, provoked thought in many ppl i guess haha.


1) i spent a lot of money today (: happy money :D

2) i bought strawberry soda at pasta today because i miss you, wth, you induce <3 i miss you so much.

3) i'm tired and i'm sick!!!! :( and i think i'm losing energy and finding it exponentially tiring to do oteam work hahaha.

4) theres so many small things i gotta do! like my sis and my dad's bday presentss D: D: must go dooo.

5) shit i'm damn heaty my lips are so freaking pain and my nose is ggxxed ahaha.

6) tmr gonna jam for the first time in like 10 billion years, for homecoming!!! :D :D excited, but at the same time lost. havent done this in a long time man haha.

7) a few days back i spent one whole evening figuring out this french tune from youtube, cos i cant find the score anywhere D: quite hardcore, play pause look at position fingers put harmony. today was thinking abt it, i guess its because its chasing smth so surreal, immaterial, pristine, that intensifies my need to discover and seek out that tune.



sharonaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa (^^,) - 1 word. 2 words - of course! (: 3 words - i love you. (: i'll alw be telling you all that! (: cos its true :D anw, duh i replied your emails :D go read go read ^^

loveyoualwayssstooo. (:

happy 08/12/08, quick before it reaches 12mn!! (:



today, is, omg, awesome, just like everyday, since forever. thankyou. (: for everyth, for every word, every touch, every move, every thought, every blogpost, every moment, every second minute hour days weeks months years decades to come. (:

everyth you, means everyth and so much more to me. its just <3 that its the same for you. (:

these points of data make a beautiful line.


(:

i love you. (:

had sec4 class dinner today at seoul garden!! haha wth, damn screwed up as usual, but omg, 4p, where else would we have such manly fun?

anw, THANKYOU ALL for the super late but super wtf + nice present D: HAHA damn apt and yes damn screwed up, but i love it :D THANK YOU 4P (:




未知于畏; 信爱于永安. 爱.

ever thine.
ever mine.
ever ours. (:

my pretty girlfriend! (:




haha today is :0 as you receive your surprise in the plastic bag with the apple pie! ^^ as usual, like everyday, ITS AN AWESOME DAY WITH YOU (:

[and song and dance went well! (: ]

HAPPY 3MONTHS.

well, to be lame, we're no longer <3, now we can only be <33333333333333333333333333333333333333. well technically. we've always been <33333333333333333333333333333333333333, since {n: n <3} ⊆ {n: n <33333333333333333333333333333333333333}. OMG. I JUST READ AND REALISED WE BOTH THINK ABT MATH. WATURF. omg. :0

anw, happy eating at pasta (again) and talking (: and someone very smart ar, taken hold of my mind and you exist. but heh its true now and, its happy. ^^




my pretty girlfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (:

op is over today! tmr is higher chinese (wtf) and beyond that, many more busy days sigh.! but i'll have someone by my side (:



and thank you (: for everything (: whatever happens, i'll always be there for you too. (:

yes, it is 2 am now, and i am awake. gone are the days of sec 4 where i slept 2 hours per day and screamed and jumped and wreaked havoc with 4p, and led rige, with infinite energy. HAHA i am getting old! as i always say, when i talk about being tired D:

it is 2 am, these few days, weeks, i dont know, have been liddat i guess, doing council stuff and whatnots. i really have no more concept of time anymore leh. desensitised really, today i was about to go home when merrill asked me, so where you going now. and i was like, home la, i got song and dance stuff to do. and then he looked at me and said then what about council gm? and i just went like. oh. its today???? omg is today thursday??? wth really?? its thursday?? omg i almost just zaoded and not rmr what day it is today, and that i have a council gm.

i went back to class table and exclaimed this, only to have the guys ask me how come i dont know its thursday, i just asked them what day today was, around 3rd block today.

wow zz. so what day is it today?? dammit haha.



well, all the busyness aside, all the workload/stress aside. actually not aside. let me start again.

well, with all the busyness here, with so much work and stress here. i'm alright (: i'm really alright, and i'm really happy (: everyday (: we're very happy everyday wth (: we're a bit weird and we laugh at all sorts of random and weird stuff, but i'm just really happy to be here with you (: you're always here by my side to support me, and i'm so glad that i'll alw be there for you. :D well ok anymore and its really mushy and for your ears only. you fell asleep! (thats great :D) but seeing your tag i really just wanted to blog this la (:

looking forward to seeing you first thing tmr morning :D iloveyou (:

抽刀断水水更流;
举杯消愁愁更愁.


SIGH

haha yes i know i havent blogged for a looooooooooooong time. i've passed my bday (which i wanted to blog and thank ppl! but omg :0 i am lazy, on the contrary, i thanked anyone who wrote on my wall/smsed me personally, even though gp was the next day (: ), and many other events which were bloggable!! but i think i'm just lazy :P

life's been wonderful (duh) as usual ^^ with you. (:

stress and work (some, unnecessary) are catching up with me, and i guess lots of stuff (some, unnecesary) are bogging me down a lot, to the point that sometimes my very dry eyes and me cant take it anymore.


but guess what, with your photoframe of us on my desk right next to this screen. i'm just really happy anyway cause we're together (:

you mean so much to me too. (:

i think as you said, a lot of ppl said today is like supp to be v big liddat, like must celebrate liddat, haha its a day with you, and its another wonderful and perfect day. (: so i guess, 1 month must celebrate, everyday so happy, might as well everyday celebrate :D everyday celebrate la :D

but yeap its a beautiful day, and what you let me find out today, its just omg -princess faints- ^^

it means a lot to me. (: and i think you just freaking defined what <3 meant. (: >